Question...

Just received an e-mail questioning:

Why do you feel you are the right candidate for this role?

How do you answer that question, when your heart telling you that you don't want to take the role...??

*sigh...sigh...siiiiiiggggghhhhh*

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My Deepest Thought

Dear S****,

For last couple of days I have been having this thought, and also been re-think and re-think again about this GBS Impact.

Based on our last conference call with T**** that our team will have cost reduction around 12%, and this has been always inside my mind and I want to let it out and talk about this to you since you are my boss.

In my opinion the best way to fulfill this 12% reduction will be cutting some of the managers that we had, and the best choice will be I—myself and another manager (W**). I know that you’d be surprise because of this and if you ask why? Then my answer is purely to get along with the GBS goal.

I know that you would think that what happen if me is not in the team anymore? What will happen to the business? I aware of that, and to convince you that I trust my team with their capability that they’ve shown to me for this last couple of years and they have never disappointed me in the terms of their responsibility to the job. And I believe that they are ready if they will be given the bigger responsibility in the future.

Please don’t think that, this thought of me will be such like a runaway from my responsibility because the only reason why I want to do this is: that logically the best reduction will come from the manager’s side (and as you know and aware the biggest costs comes from me and W**).

Once again, I’d been considering this thought over and over again, and I really-really realize that if this happen I’d already prepare my “big heart” to accept the decisions with my open arms.

Hope this could give you as an insight for the difficult decision in this GBS Impact.

All the best !!

Very kind regards,
A****

Ps: this thought is based on my Scenario 2 that I have sent you in my previous e-mail.

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Hi A****,
Thankyou for your heart felt thoughts. I do appreciate these and that you have such consideration for your team. That is the sign of a good leader to me. I do also appreciate how hard these decisions are. My thoughts right now are that at times of such change the business needs leaders like you who can make that change but also care about our people. My preference and what I and T**** are working on is for you to continue to lead this team forward and to keep as many of the team as possible. We will fight very hard for this. We will keep you informed as we go through the process.

Kind Regards
S****
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Well.... totally I don't really know am I a good leader (just like my Boss said) or not, or maybe he said in order to make me calm and feel comfort... to be honest until now--and i don't know when it will end--my feeling stays the same that is: feel insecure and burdened. :(

My friend said: in such a short time you are truly have had experience as what the leader have, you had become staff person, you had interviewed person, and now you have to fire persons (* damn!! the last one is the one that I actually don't want to do it!!).

That's why I wrote above e-mail to my Boss, to convince him that the better way to have the reduction is cutting me all the way instead of cutting my team...but the decission is not purely in me... :( :( :(

Well this is the reality of life...accept and live with it..!!

Suzi...

Alooo....long time no see..here i am again.. :)

Sekarang gue mau cerita kejadian yang...apa ya...dibilang aneh...gak aneh juga karena ini udah gue harap2in terjadi dari sejak gue jadian yang pertama kali...

Jadi gini..gue sering berpikir.."how do we know that the girl that we dreamed about is ready to be with us in every condition..in happiness or in sadness"...well i have my own parameter to consider which one is the right girl.. :)

All of a sudden two days ago..i went home so very late with her...and suddenly i don't know where it came and how that happened...my Suzi had flat tyre... :( :( secara itu udah jam 1/2 12 malem..bingung dong nyari tukang ban...dan disebelah loe ada cewek yang mau bonceng..tengsin...super tengsin yang ada euy... :(

Tapi....you know what...not even a little expression from her face that showing a gloomy or be-te face karena harus nemenin dorong si Suzi..dan ditengah perjalanan nyari dokter buat Suzi gue she kept on telling me story of her life, office life, etc.etc....wow i am so happy..pastinya...karena sejak dari dulu gue ngarepin kejadian flat tyre ini terjadi...tapi kok dilalah ternyata kejadiannya pas lagi jalan ama dia..hehehe...still gue don't know is she the one..but at least satu parameter yang gue tetepin dia udah lulus dengan nilai A++ :D

I don't know if this moment created by Him to answer my question..is she the one??